This blog was conceived in a bid to process my unconventional Anorexia Nervosa recovery. I didn’t expect to fall in love with writing, nor did I think that my ADHD and OCD would continue to impact my life so significantly.
The Ultimate Side Quest
Entirely consistent with my ADHD, I’m going to take a necessary detour, speaking out against Services Australia, The Fairwork Commission and the individuals who almost cost me my life.
Reliving the utter devastation of what happened to me and contemplating the injustice I was repeatedly subjected to is a kind of mental paralysis I struggle to survive every day. If you’ve googled my name and expected a deranged creature who is nothing short of monosyllabic, screeching profanities at every opportunity – I’m afraid you’ve been hoodwinked by the very design of my perpetrators. But if you read both the decision and appeal critically, I expect some of you may feel that something is amiss.
In reality, I pissed off two managers who made false allegations about me and at first, I blamed my disability. I believed I wasn’t managing it properly. After several months of being targeted, I suffered a mental breakdown at work. Rather than support, I was subjected to a disciplinary process that I was not able to effectively participate in. I was suspended three days after my first of three suicide attempts. Through an FOI sent to Comcare, it appears that none of my hospitalisations were reported, something I’ve asked them to investigate. In fact, I’ve made complaints to multiple oversight bodies, hoping that someone will consider the evidence; a suicidal, cognitively disabled woman with no history of violence is removed from the workplace, primarily on the word of someone who managed her for only two weeks. She is somehow expected to tend to her now exacerbated disabilities, while being defamed and mischaracterised. She is not allowed to speak to anyone who might be able to help her defend herself. Her financial stability is then disrupted, leading to loss of access to the treatment for her ADHD, OCD and MDD, which leads to increasingly impulsive, obsessive behaviour. The pressure results in two more suicide attempts, which are later viewed as threatening and portrayed as further misconduct.
The individuals responsible for the destruction of my life, mental health and livelihood painted themselves as the victims. As abusers do. They held all the power, they knew how fragile I was, yet they continually made decisions that put my life at significant risk. The Fairwork Commission members responsible for the Unfair Dismissal decision and my unsuccessful appeal will undoubtedly embolden certain individuals to continue their abuse.
As an aside, I noticed an influx in visits to my blog two days following the release of the Unfair Dismissal Decision, August 27th 2026 and again following a crudely written blog post, which omitted key details on September 7th 2026. I’ve since had both removed, but I will provide screenshots of the original blog post and include the both Fairwork decisions here. I could have sought more attention to my blog during this phase of infamy, but I made private my previous writings because I was concerned that counsel for the respondent, Kingston Reid and Peta Willoughby, might use my historical recovery blog posts as ammunition. Hell, Willoughby attempted to frame the act of feeding the homeless and vulnerable each week at Musgrave Park as a transgression in the hearing. Willoughby also cross examined me about the contents of my suicide note, feigned ignorance regarding the subject matter when I identified the material being taken out of context, then proceeded to falsely argue in her closing that Services Australia were never aware that I was suicidal.
Deputy President Lake reproduced my entire suicide note in the decision, framing crisis communications as threatening, while stripping my assertions of accountability seeking of important context. A self-represented former APS3 was held to a higher standard than a government agency and the blatant misuse of office engaged in by the higher ups was excused or ignored. Many of the arguments I made were misrepresented or glossed over. Evidence that contradicted the narrative of my alleged misconduct gave way to speculation, while an over reliance on logical fallacies and cognitive biases underpinned much of the ‘reasoning’.
I’m going to slowly unravel what I experienced, because my biggest fear is that this has or will happen to someone else. My story sounds outrageous, but nothing I will say lacks evidence. I’m currently trying to ensure I can release certain information without further penalties. I’ve already had so much taken from me by this institutional abuse; they will not take my ability to tell the world what really happened.
*Apologies for the pixelated video of the blog post I referred to, you will have to pause to read it. I will upload better version when I can summon the energy to do so.